Haunted

"YOU’RE ALWAYS HAUNTED BY THE IDEA YOU’RE WASTING YOUR LIFE."

-Chuck Palahniuk, “Diary”

So you want to be a writer?

by Charles Bukowski
if it doesn't come bursting out of you in spite of everything, don't do it. unless it comes unasked out of your heart and your mind and your mouth and your gut, don't do it. if you have to sit for hours staring at your computer screen or hunched over your typewriter searching for words, don't do it. if you're doing it for money or fame, don't do it. if you're doing it because you want women in your bed, don't do it. if you have to sit there and rewrite it again and again, don't do it. if it's hard work just thinking about doing it, don't do it. if you're trying to write like somebody else, forget about it. if you have to wait for it to roar out of you, then wait patiently. if it never does roar out of you, do something else. if you first have to read it to your wife or your girlfriend or your boyfriend or your parents or to anybody at all, you're not ready. don't be like so many writers, don't be like so many thousands of people who call themselves writers, don't be dull and boring and pretentious, don't be consumed with self- love. the libraries of the world have yawned themselves to sleep over your kind. don't add to that. don't do it. unless it comes out of your soul like a rocket, unless being still would drive you to madness or suicide or murder, don't do it. unless the sun inside you is burning your gut, don't do it. when it is truly time, and if you have been chosen, it will do it by itself and it will keep on doing it until you die or it dies in you. there is no other way. and there never was.

Glimpse

We want the spring to come and the winter to pass.
We want whoever to call or not call,
A letter, a kiss-
We want more and more
And then more of it

But there are moments,
Walking, when I catch a glimpse of myself in the
Window glass,
Say, the window of the corner video store,
And I'm gripped by a cherishing
So deep for my own blowing hair,
Chapped face, and unbuttoned coat
That I'm speechless:

I am living...


-Marie Howe

Hard

"Everything is hard until it is easy."
-Goethe

Crazy Magic

"Everyone wants some magical solution for their problem and everyone refuses to believe in magic."
 - The Mad Hatter

Kiss and Travel

"Reading about traveling is like kissing through a screen door." - Glenn Rawson

Let Go

Dear Peter, I am finding in life that as we let go, the spirit takes over more. I am learning to trust and the key is SO simple. Never let yourself feel fear. Always feel love, it's that easy. Each day if I want to feel any negative emotions I realize that that will keep my body from healing and that the only way to heal is to trust and to feel love. I wake up and think, death or happiness my only two choices :) I am learning to become VERY happy and realizing all of us can make this choice every single day. If there is any worry in your heart just let it go and dwell in a space of happiness and love. That's the space where all the miracles happen. You are being watched and attended by a ton of angels and by Christ so just enjoy! No worries, be happy."

-A letter to Peter, a missionary, from his violin teacher, Natalie Reed